too short for us

Hey girl, sorry i couldn't said this in front of you.
This because you're still with someone else.
and because i don't wanna to ruin our friendship.
This may sound absurd but this is what i see,
Thank you for appear into my life,
You ease my pain, even the scar have left in my heart already fade away because you are always there.
If i could, i likely wanna say i want you but it's better for me to shut my heart for moment and stop thinking nonsense and be wise.
Even i couldn't have you but seeing you is enough.
May sound crazy but it's true.
Our friendship is much greater even the distance separating us.
You just not mine, same like the previous one. and i can't repeating the same mistakes.

Problem is just an obstacles that just need to get over it.
So i won't regret for everything i had. It just a lesson need to be learned.

Dear friend,
                      In the middle of september, we watch the performance even in the rain while i'm
                      holding the umbrella. Nothing to lose but everything to gain. Acting like i don't care with
                      such small things but i do. I just don't want to be caught.

Sometimes i wonder because the times for us is just too short but still it worth it.
Still, We both have time to be spend. This is for you girls with the letter of Z.