O.K.U.

at very last moment i had on my last day i'm working with F n B, it kinda moody and i don't know why but slowly its cooldown and i feel better. There was a table where 2 couple sitting next to each other and calling me to take order and i immediately went to the table and give a smile as it one of the rule in F n B. Suddenly, they just pointing on the picture and circle it. It makes me whispering in my heart "why don't you talk that you want that meal". Then i said to them "So you want the meal 3, and what gonna be your topping for your meal.." . Again, they just looking at the picture and pointing to the flavour they want. When she asking her bf, then i notice that both of them is a Silencer. For the first time i had to use signal language or non-verbal language. Of course it was very nervous because i'm afraid if miscommunication occur i might key in wrong order. I try my best to make them understand what i'm talking about and i try to understand what they want eventhough my signal language is very poor and i never try it before. Finally it over and i felt relief.

even they are "special" people, we have to treat them right because there is only one thing we need to know, notice, remember, and aware that they are also a human being that have feeling and heart.

If you all had a chance, try it, it fun..hee =D

loVe..

If it not you, i don't ever exist on this earth. You let me to see the world instead throw me into the thrash or giving me to the dog to become their food. You teach me how to become a good human being. You never giving up to decorating inner me eventhough sometimes what i have done is wrong because you believe in that people learn from mistakes. With all the tears, sweat and pain, there is not even a single word from you that you are regretting in raise me up. You teach me to understand the nature of life. You always warm me up with your smile, ease my feeling and give me the best that i could have. You always happy in me even i'm not a genius person or always not get what i wanted because you wanted me to learn what is the mean of independent. You are the most people who are always willing to hear all my problem. Never tired listening on what i'm babbling about and how mundane it was. I don't know if i'm lost a person like you. What should i do and to who i want to share my problem without knowing the word of BORED because i know you are the only one who understand me the best. What do i know i will cry and when the tears will stopped i don't know. And maybe it the most hurting things that i will feel than a broken hearted.

Even i'm already grown up you never tired giving yours warm smile.

Umie, you are most lovely mother that i have with your lovely way. Even as a single mother you still able to teach  and raise us in a good way. i'm sorry for being such a spoil brat. I promise i'm gonna be a strong person so u can  proud with the way who i am. even your age is getting older and older but you don't look as yours age.

i'm proud with you. Thanks umie. Even it too late to post on mothers day but to me everyday is mothers day.

ToleraTe..

this is most of thing that i feel it important in life. why can't people tolerate or spare some patient in their self instead of only think about what they need or want. it's doesn't mean that i'm going to babbling some s**t but everybody have their own patient limits. I don't know what to say to those people but what do i know u all people are SELFISH!!. 

it easy, spare some patient and sometimes you will get more than what you expected. people who think they are perfect are sometime in these categories. like you know everything happen around you. try to imagine you are in those people shoes that trying so hard to give you the best.

*sigh*

I do not intend to be racist, but i'm sad with my race. why most of in-tolerate people are from my race.
try to understand what happen around before speak up. sometime something is not like what you expected.

lefT beHind..

haih..smue suda mahu smbg blaja..stu2 per stu mmbe2 aku pegi..
knape la universiti aku ney lmbat sgt open sem baru ney..haih..tpi okie gak..sbb aku kene prepare ngn bakal2 subjek killer ney..
cmner la ek..sbb itulah yg d cerita kn oleh snior2 ku..tpi itulah x boley la nk percaye bulat2 rite.. kte kne try dlu baru taw..
trase kesorungan plak.. hilg tmn2 untuk mlepak2.. kne crik bnde baru la cmney.. smuanyer untuk mmbunuh kebusanan yg cube untuk mnyerang diri ini..

vacation is the most best thing to do to clear up all these nonsense thought..
i'm trying to find a place where i can peacefully think about ma future..


my friend let meet again on the next semester break..

paTh..

just lately it feel like i lost myself..where it go i don't even know..
it just disappear and it seems it won't come again anymore..
i feel lost..where should i go..what i want for myself..??
i'm not acting like myself..
yeah it true everybody will face the sad moment..it not like i'm the only one who are have to face it..
and i can't escape it because its a part of nature and cycle of life..
wake up!! u don't need to go this far..u know what is wrong and what is right..
i guess i must get back stand with my own feet again..i can't be this way forever..i know i'm not a fools..
i'm feels sorry for my friend..she also through the same life like me..
"just have faith my friend..u can do it.."
it seems sure that talk is cheap cause even myself i can't handle it..i'm sorry because my words spill out without any experience just according to the theories..now i know how it feels..and i don't know what to say anymore..

my dear sister..i'm sorry for being such a spoil brother..yeah u r right..
a man need to become more rational..don't need to be too emotional..

also thx to my old friends..
like u said "let logic defy your heart.."
time is sure the cure it just that how we make it as a remedy..

like the wavin flag song..
"When I get older I will be stronger"..

counTin da days..

days came n pass by..
juz like say 'hi' n 'bye'..

i realize sumtime when we wan to face sumting, what we need to have is courage..
be strong to face the future dat will coming in our life..
wether it gud or bad..juz face it..
notin will last forever..
because everthin has it own couple..

many thing has happen in our world..
wether it in political, economical, geogolical n wat so eva..
its change everiday..

everi blink of our eyes time also pass by..
like ma fwen said..
"human without hope can juz die in any second.."
i wonder wat it gona be 4 da people dat don hav any drem..
dat juz follow the flow of da world..myb it gona b tough for them..poor...

everi 1st try is not always be the last..people will learn from da mistakes n it depends on the situation..but if the same mistakes repeat..myb u can known as ''FOOL"..or myb u juz dun hav luck..

as we grown up..do we notice..alot of thing change rite..it happen all around us including ourself..
i saw a kids..he very talkative..remind me when i was a kids...n dat behaviour sure not last long..since as i grown up..sumtimes it very lazy for me to talk n i rather to use body language dat is non verbal language..

back to the main story..sometimes i'm just worried what will happen to the world..
just zoom in to our country..what will happen to my future generation..what kind of people will lead my country..yes i admit theres a lot of genius kid now..since my generation is educated generation..
but intelligent without attitude is zero..since my country is multi race..we have to share and respect with each other so our peace is remain in my country..

our child memories sure is most fun doesn't it..??
even sometimes it makes me smile alone when memorize back those memories..
well what have past just let it be..everibodi will miss it..

still world is waiting for us to face it..what have left us a.k.a die..
juz let it be coz it nature of the world..it we juz need to keep goin..
"plan ur life ahead..no need to follow it strictly..juz make it like a schedule..so you won't miss the opportunity to hav a great life.." said by my math lecturer..
i agree with that, even she do it in her life..yup she very successful in her life now..even as a lecturer..

it all what i can say now..
                                       later in future i try to post something more interesting..

w0nder dat starteD to ArgUe wiT maSelf..

Since lately ney mmg aku da rse kpenatan kerja sket..
myb im back alredy to my sense..hurraYyYy!!!

knape Ek slu klu aku OD msti xde pape mmbe2 nk bwt..
tpi tme aku krje je cm2 plan diorunk..haih

i started to figure out..i must improve my english language..
coz it started to broken bit by bit..i can't be in diz current stated to take MUET..oh no0..

the solution is alredy knew but wat to do is im kinda stuck into..hmm
which one..?? hmm myb i shuld try 1 by 1..

i wonder..actually wat is the factor of a someone achieving glory..
it is their work hardness, or r they genius, or myb luck..
from islam view my because they hav a clear heart..

i duno which is it..

sumtimes we try doin sumthig hard..but the result is juz not like we expected..
poor than our expectation..

what must i do..?? it is i'm hopeless, dumb, stupid, not creative enough or enterin to a wrong place...

from my view..
we as human always hav a road that diverge...which mean when we hav to decide about sumtin..
"Yes" or "No"..
diz thing decide wat r we or where we r..
the way we chose dat makes wat we r..

we all know wat we should choose..but sumtime we deny to choose the gud one and instead glad with the wrong way..

still both of the way..it has it own experience..

not everything will end with gud ending or bad ending..

juz hav faith in life..