lame sungguh..

da berhabuk da belog aku neyh..byase laa bz cket sem neyh..huhu..
kate nk dekan ( dlm mimpi laa.. ). actly, byk ak da pk nk post lam blog ak cme tme ilham tue dtg, tme tu lerr tenet nk wat selow..klu ksi race ngn siput spongebob gary tuh un kompem gary tuh mnag..klu nk dbnding en dengan kutu babi, ase nyer dorunk siap ley nganjing2 ag kot..haih neyh la die klu da pki line celcom..bale bale..

mse lam ak x tulih belog ak, mcm2 idea dtg..cume ak x ready ag nk post sbb x ckop impak korunk nk bace..
so, hold on dlu.

cm pepatah omputeh tuh " a wise man speak when they needed.." haha.

Buat mase skg neyh lam pale otak ak hnye bole mngatakan ak tramat busaanngg duduk di bumi perlis neyh. Sbb ape busan..?? ak xleyh gtaw..korunk kne dtg sndri and bwt konklusi memasing..stiap org berbeza perspektif mereka..huhu.

Tpi ak ksi nsihat spe2 yg gler jln2 tuh bek korunk jaoh2 la kn diri except korunkk da stnby bwk pasport la..at least bole fly gi siam..hehe. Mcm2 ade kot, baju, makanan, brg2 berapi (senjata api), dan ayam. Haa korunk jgn pkir len plak, ayam aku mksud tuh ayam yg boleyh bwk goreng tuh n wat makan..hehe.

ak ase takat ney jela kot ak cter..yg len tuh myb len kli..

n.n

-.-

My world became small since i surrounding by great people. This thing always make me out of confident doing thing because everytime i finished doing some work there always will be a judge-mental psychopath comes from no where and gives criticized about my work like "Ade ke bende camni wujud??", "x logik arr..", "asl ko bwt mcm neyh, ko ske susah kn dri en??", "owh cmtu..(so lame this idea)". Okay, i know that i'm not good as they who comes from boarding school, MRSM, Cluster technical school and a person who really are wannabe an engineer. I'm not a person came with good result, it was just i'm luckily got entered this university. My dream isn't to become an engineer. When i was a kid i always said to my parent that my dream are become an engineer. I said so because i was told that engineer salary was expensive, that why i wanna to be an engineer. Every person will always come to it peak where he or she can't do thing, when they pursue something even they not interested. I am one of them, right now i become hesitated on my life. What i should become. I just felt that my life become so hard now. Sometimes i put an effort on the top notch but the result always disappoint me. It feel sad when people are expecting something good that i'm gonna get. Right now, environmental really influencing me.

               I really enjoyed when shooting picture, listen to the song, cooking, watching movie and stuff liked that. Honestly, i really felt depressed with my life.Before i came to this place where i'm still not continue my study, lot of friend of mine received lot of letters from education institution. Except me, only a letter was on the table that time offering me to continue my studies. It left me no choice, i had to. Beginning of my studies it all alright and okay to me. Until in the middle of semester 2, where a girl came into my life and upside down all i had in me. Despite her, at least i'm learn something. There will be a time where i'm gonna say what an engineer need in their life. When i'm home, i really envy with my friend which they continue their studies in the field they really interested. Right now, i'm really stuck with my life..

the playful ones..

He came to our life bring a lot of happiness and havoc that makes our house become full of joy. Even, he came with illness like "kurap2" but with the faith of my sister that we will heal him. A few weeks later, the illness gone. We are happy with that coz he's fine. We name it as Odie. He was very playful, everything he saw i'll become as his toys. Even my sister socks. The way he play never show that he ever will tired of a games. He really easy on making friend. In just a few week, he already can make friends with our another cat. Since, the other also kinda playful. With his playful personality, he was loved by our family especially my sister.

When he play, i can sense that the other also happy to play with him. Every night, my sister will take him out from his cage seem he really like littering inside the house. He will play with the other like there no7. tomorrow. He was really happy when he able being outside. Things that he will do everyday :
1. Play
2. Eat and Drink
3. Play
4. Choosing things that can be his toy
5. Play
6. Chasing the other cat
7. Break for a drink
8 Play
9. Play With my sister
10. Play on the garden
11. Climbing the tree

How to shut him down is by putting back into the cage.

Here the picture of him when he started to play :

chomell kn..??

luvin it when he making that face x)

Until one days, he came to us and making face to be pampered. It all of sudden and i still don't notice it.
a few day later, he start to threw up and saliva keep came out from his mouth. We just though that he get some light illness. Things getting worse when he started to stop eating. Worried strikes us. We took him meet the veterinaries. It true that he was fell sick.

The main of the sick was he was infected by virus called A.F.I.

They gave us tips and advice to heal him. We do what they told and plus with the supplement for him. Things still don't show any positive result.

For your information, the virus was the strongest virus for a cat's virus. He still a kitten. The doctor only said "if thing still didn't change, just pray to the that he will survive from the virus..". Sudden feel came into my heart and for sure it was sad feeling. But still i won't give until he survive from his illness. I gave my best try to save him. I know he's strong. From his condition, it really make me feel sad. I hoping that he will given a chance to live until he become an adult cats.

3 a.m.
he still lying on the cage with his eyes open showing that he can't sleep. I laid my hand on him. The day after, a text message came in written " Odie da kembali ke pangkuan tuhan.." .

I close my eyes, i said to myself i'm failed again. Where can i find a cat as playful as you. I'm just want to see you grown as an adult. I'm pity for my sis. That is her beloved cat.

That was the story of the playful one that was part of my life.

p/s : sori, ak x memahami cara engkau cube sampaikn selamat tinggal
       = C

ProbLem..

Well, have you had a moment where when you looking at a people, where you try to give a smile but sadly those smile never get a feedback. Then, a sudden thought strike you which contain full of bad message. Most of people tend to do this, i don't even know what actually the main source that make people this way.Usually, those thought is easily to be accept by it owner, no offence at all.

It's rare to meet a people that always look on the brightside. Try to open our mind and become a little wiser than before. Try to think a little more further than before. What i try so say is, everybody had their own problem. Everybody had to solve their own problem. Don't judge them by just looking on their faces. Just because you didn't had a smile back, you make your own assumption. Every person is a different person. They will never be the same. In a movie, the director create a storyline where the exist a people have a same characteristic which is same 100%. In other word, the other person is a clone of the origin but have a different faces. LoL. Such a dramatic storyline which easily to find on the korean drama series. I'm not saying only on korean drama stories only, other country drama series also the same. The tittle 'drama' is already will give us an image of what it is. People that surrounding with problem they mostly will ignore the environmental. They not being arrogant or anti-social, it just because they will try to find out a solution as fast as they could. Nobody wanna to be burden with problem such a long time.

People attitude is not state on their face. Be a little bit understanding. It's not wrong after all. Don't give a crap if people don't respond on your smile, after all " Senyum itu adalah satu Sedekah ".

^.^

i don't know what in my head right now, my exam gonna end around in the corner of the week. at last, it's HOLIDAY babe, Wohoo. Do u have ever once realize that actually our heart really easy to be scared of, try to think once, and you will know what i mean. Fear was one of human factor make them scared to make something, and tend to repeat the same mistakes.

In our world, theres a lot of beautiful things that we can see and share. For me, i like to watch a certain scene. Like, the picture of garden, mountain, clear sky, and etc, plus if i watch them and listen to my mp3 it makes my day =D . I'm sure you also have the same interest, but maybe it on your own way. So, let's try to make our earth green. Try to avoid littering, throw those thrash in their place. It's not that hard after all, find a dustbin then put it inside them. Even there no dustbin, why don't just spare a moment of your pocket to be as a dustbin until you find the real one. We are actually cruel creature-being, try to think, what have natural gave us. Food, Place, Cloth and Others. What does gave them, thrash, polluted air, contaminated water, burning forest, extinction of animal habit. Does it fair ?. Think about it.

People always judge a people by their appearance. There was too rare for a people to make a good perception on a people on their first meet. What make a people as a people ?. How to determine them ?. People have their own characteristic. I guess how their have their behavior is depend on the environmental of their living. That was maybe their influences. How does a shemale can turn that way ?. Does he really meant to be that way. Nobody knows. Maybe they have their on reason or maybe it's like my opinion. Okay, let say, i have many friend that are a girl. When i'm asking them, "Which are you gonna chose, appearance or behavior ?" many of them will answer "behavior". But i felt it was a lie. Many of them will chose the vice versa. Appearance first. Sometimes, have you ever met a person that is different outside and inside. For me, i have. I have a friend which is his appearance looks like a bunch of bad guy. Many will say that, this kind of people will neglecting their study and just wanna to have fun in their life. But it wrong, he more smarter than me. I'm kinda envy with this kind of people because when you put your effort more than them but they more excellent than you what do you feel ?.

Okay, i guess i have to sleep, kinda sleepy here.
to be continued...

time..

mase yg berlalu terlalu pantas bagi aku, laju jer..ase cm ad hari yg aku trskip tp pkir blek xde lah pulak..hmm, skrg neyh aku sdg melihat rakan2 ku yg brseronok sdg cuti sem, manakala aku msih ag bwu nk exam..warghh!!!

nex week aku da stat ngn paper2 killer yg tiada gap diantaranya.. so aku xkn heran jikalau dak2 kelas aku ke dewan exam brmate kn emo dan gothic (huhu style abes cm2 msok dewan pekse) .. bila di fikir kn, uni len ksi stady week smngu jer..haa kterunk ngn ad nyer nc yg trlalu bek hati mmberi kami stady week 3 mngu mngikut kiraan cincai tambah tolak smue. klu plajar nerd dpt cmneyh, kompem die kate heaven gler nk dpt 4 flat.. tp tulah, klu ksi aku sbln stdy week kt aku un aku rse x ckop..muahaha,, ini smue kerna angkara malas yer..huhu..kkdg 2 ad gak ttbe lam pale aku trlintas "sal la xde mnusia yg genius sesgt wt msin mase.." trok kn aku..haha..kkdg 2 cm2 aku da motivate dri aku..untuk 5 mnit pertama bole ag, tp ble da mmbe on call, owh aku tertewas..warghh..xpe "stady bia smart.." tp aku neyh x smart mner weyh..tlongg!!

cmner la neh..aku cuak bena nyer.. nk jer stdy x tdo tp sme jer..nti otak aku hang on, ag trok aku rse..bole mngundang format kt otak aku, so bek wt pe yg mmpu jer..aku un xde la mgharapkn pointer gempak2 neyh sbb aku un sdar gak dri aku neyh, xde la "star" mne pown nk score tgi2..bia jelah..tawakal sje..hee =D

konklusi nyer aku akn cube mng offline kn dri untk smntara wk2 supye leyh focus (hp un nk gak ke eh, hmm xperlu kot..hohoho)

s0, to all ma fwen yg sme trikh exam im wishin u a gudluck for the paper, and wish me gudluck 2 kayh..
^.^

Oh, i'm just feeling soRry for myselF..

Well noting much to say actually, just now i realize that life must be go on. I can't be 24/7 emo, eventhough i really hated bout it. I admit this time, that what past just let it pass. It's really a waste if i try to look back again. She will never meant to be with me. So, like everybody said "bunga bukan sekuntum.." . Haha i'm tired of this games, being pretending that i actually already okay but the fact my feeling still don't fade away. I'm just hurting myself. It doesn't mean that i give up, it just thing doesn't work out. We have been gave a brain to use and think, and i must think how to make myself happier instead of hoping that she will back to me and love me again. Such a trash thinking i guess. Like my friend said even we are 'alone', we  can still be happy. It just we need to seek how to be happy again. This time i will move on for sure, no need to be hesitated anymore. I'm sick of keeping my heart hurt and hurt. What do i get ? nothing after all. For a girls, they maybe can have fun now because we the guys gonna support them in the future. For the guys, if we just have fun now and fail on the future who gonna support us? Better start think about my future and what have been i through is a just 'ujian' from HIM. I'm glad after all, because i know this will make me stronger than before. This is just one of the 'ujian'. If i can't solve this thing now how bout the next 'ujian'. I don't want to be such a crap loser. Everybody want to be a champion. hehe.. umm i'll try to post something more freshie and interesting after this, instead of "lovey-dovey" things haha. For all for the reader, thank a lot for reading and give some responded. I really appreciate it. ^.^.


Free tips fella's, don't afraid to try something new ^.^

For her, i got nothing say just don't get yourself hurt again.

Toodles ~